Allotment Evening
You left the fire burning. The smoke stirred like a person moving among the brassicas and twine, and for a moment we thought it was you. The ground was steeped in yellow. Daffodils hung their soft heads, surrounded by light, and I lifted the tender net on the cage (the growing cage) and went in. I had to prise their leaves apart to find their purpled necks. Their long, tender stems, their gaining forms, were huge and warm and I had to cut at them with my own fingers and nails, I had to sink them into the tough wet and pull away their heads. My daughter went up and down the path on her bike. The wheels rattled while I knelt at the shrine of growing gods, and killed them. Their proud hearts came away easily. I stood holding them a long time in the crimson evening, the high sky hung a salt-wash blue, and our bodies, two, were dark against all that natural glory, the smoke continued to rise out of its wound smelling of sacredness and earth, and when my daughter asked me for water and I made a cup from her hands the sound of her drinking was like nothing else, it was like victory after the killing. We walked away then, our hands dripping. The long, limp shadows of the cage, their deep green, pooled low, humming with softness and blood, but we were going away, singing and rattling with the wheels on the bike (their turn, their turn) our dead things in hand and the sun over our heads, shining.
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